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thanks for checking in. You didn’t need to. I wasn’t expecting you to. But thanks I just miss her. I hoped when I came back But I haven’t even seen her since. I kinda knew but… I hoped, you know? I guess I shoulda learned a long time ago not to hope for nothing How are you doing? She loved you too you know?

of course. and ftr, i wanted to

( check-in, that is. Dinah meant a lot to Faith, and making sure Dinah isn't alone and has someone to lean on or just talk to comes easily, now, for Buffy. )

she missed you, too
a great deal
but that wasn't a surprise with the way she loves you

( not loved, but loves. because while the city is known to mess with their memories before they leave, Buffy thinks matters of the heart can't be manipulated. that even now, wherever Faith is, she still loves Dinah. even if she can't remember her. )

what if this is a fluke or something?
she could come back with all her memories in place
same as you

i'm... okay
and officially no longer a "teenager" as of last week
along with now being an official graduate of the program
i think

and i do
even when i was horrible to her, i knew

we’ll, thanks. I appreciate it But honestly I can’t think about it. The what ifs. Faith was going back to shit - jail sentences, no one caring about her… I don’t mean that as a dig at you but. When I think of the shit she thought she’d go back to? I hate that I can’t help her. I hate that I’m stuck here fucking knowing and not able to do jack all. I went it alone for longer than she did and that alone? It gets to you after a while. Makes you forget who you are. Makes you do shit you wouldn’t and gets you in trouble. I’m scared Faith will. Happy birthday, B, I guess. And congratulations. Wow. Full on citizen, huh? That’s a big one!

telling you not to worry won't really do any good i'm sure
but just know she isn't alone
she has angel

plus
if she and i were able to work things out here, i know we'll eventually get to a similar place back home too
she won't be alone, dinah
and you won't either
i know we had our disagreements but if you ever need someone, i'm here

i can't promise to keep you out of trouble all of the time
but
i can promise you won't be in it by yourself

thanks
i kinda laid low for it
considering my birthdays are always a disaster

that’s good to know I guess. I’m glad she’s not alone. I know this - d’you have like, a photo or something of her? When I came back all my shit was gone. All my photos of us and shit. I mean it doesn’t matter but… i’d like to remember her at least. Hey we should go out and have a drink? I’ve just got work at the Back Door - we can go there if you like? Or anywhere. Celebrate a bit? B, we’re cool. No disagreement. It was only over Faith and I shoulda known she could handle it.

i can do you one better

( the photo she sends to Dinah isn't of just Faith. it's one of Faith and Dinah, together, smiling. happy. lost in one another, and completely unaware of Buffy taking it. )

i'm glad someone took up ownership of the place
faith put a lot of heart into it
and yeah, i'd like that a lot actually
when's good for you?

[It's a long while before Dinah answers. The picture's moved her to tears: she loves and misses Faith more than she can ever describe.]

thank you Buffy I dont know how you got that pic but thank you I dont even know what to say she built that for me, you know? back door? just to make me happy. she build me a damn club my next shift's Friday so if you dont mind me singing between drinks? or im off tonight or Monday?

yw

you don't have to say anything
i'm just glad i ended up capturing the moment
i don't think i ever got to show faith the picture before she left
she was at her happiest when with you

she told me as much
it's why i know she put her whole heart into it

i def don't mind you singing between shifts
i'll be there

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